Leaving it all behind with 2012.
2012 was a crazy year. First I stopped schooling and decided to get a job to earn money for my education. Then ever since I left school everyone is still trying to affiliate me with HIM. At first it was ok because since me and HIM were so close before, it didn’t bother me. But it went out of hand. Even though i tell them that I don’t like HIM anymore, everybody is still connecting my name to HIM.
I remembered sometime in November, when a friend of mine sang I Wont Give Up of Jason Mraz, I cried. I cried hard. Even though we were inside a bar, I cried Because I really loved HIM. I gave everything to him, put all my efforts in everything for HIM. I went out of my way just to please HIM. Sacrificed everything for HIM.
I’m not regretting the decisions that I’ve made, because every single one of them were the happiest moment in my life. Just being with him made me happy enough. Even though we were supposed to meet at 2 and he came at 7 I didn’t care. As long as he was with me.
Earlier, I read this post http://houseofsoul.tumblr.com/post/27882394126/my-definition-of-letting-go-to-me-letting-go
My Definition of “Letting Go.”To me, letting go isn’t accomplished by forgetting. It’s not fulfilled by not to thinking about her, or ignoring her. It doesn’t involve leaving the relationship with feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t me winning, and her losing. It’s not about protecting my pride, or destroying hers. My interpretation of “letting go” is not about how we appear, and it’s not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t forcefully erasing memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not giving in to her, or giving up on her.To me, the process of “letting go” involves cherishing memories. To let go, one must overcome and move on. It’s having an open mind and the utmost confidence in the future. It’s the acceptance of what has been done. It’s about the experienced and learning gained during the relationship. It’s about being thankful for how your significant other improved you.“Letting go” involves strength, acceptance, and an open mind for the future.But yeah, that’s my interpretation of “letting go.”
It inspired me. It gave me strength to leave the memories of HIM in 2012 and start clean in 2013. :)
thank you for reading, have a happy new year and a happy new you!\
